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The library had been dead for long enough that the books had stopped looking like books.
The paper had taken on the quality of the building — grey and settled, the text still legible in some volumes but no longer urgent, the knowledge contained in them having passed from useful to archaeological without anyone marking the transition. The shelves were mostly intact. The roof had holes but not catastrophically, which meant the interior had the specific quality of a place that was decaying on its own schedule rather than being actively destroyed.
Kaine moved through it the way she moved through most places — like she owned it and was mildly offended by its condition. The twin blades at her hips were accessible. The presence inside her was quiet today, which she had learned to treat as information rather than comfort.
She was looking for a specific text — something about the Shades' original nature that the village's researcher had referenced. Third shelf from the east wall, if the catalogue she'd memorized was accurate.
She found the shelf.
She found the man sitting in front of it.
He was on the floor with his back against the shelf, legs out, staring at the ceiling with the expression of someone who had been staring at the ceiling for a while. Dark hair, purple eyes, a mechanical arm that had the look of something that had been installed rather than grown. He was dressed wrong for this world — the clothes were too modern, the materials too precise.
He registered her presence without moving. "You're real," he said.
"Obviously," she said.
"I've been checking," he said, which explained the ceiling staring. "The nightmares have a specific quality. Real things don't usually announce themselves by being annoyed."
She looked at him. "What are you doing on the floor."
"I ended up here." He said it with the flatness of someone who had run out of energy to make the situation more explainable. "I was somewhere else and then I was here. The transition was—" he paused— "disorienting."
She assessed him the way she assessed most things — quickly, accurately, without much investment in what she found. Not hostile. Not well. The arm was interesting. The eyes were more interesting.
"You're not from here," she said.
"No." He looked at his arm — at the mechanical components, the way the movement didn't quite match what an arm should look like from the inside. "I'm Caleb."
"Kaine." She moved to the shelf and found the catalogue position for the text she needed. It was there. She pulled it out.
"What are you looking for?" he said.
"Something about origin states," she said. "For Shades." She looked at him over the book. "You know what Shades are."
"I don't."
"Monsters," she said. "Or what used to be humans before they became monsters. Or things that were always themselves and humans decided to call monsters." She looked at the book. "The distinction matters, apparently."
He was quiet for a moment. "Why does it matter to you specifically?"
She looked at him.
He was looking at her with the direct attention of someone who had asked a question he actually wanted answered — not a social question, a real one.
"Because one lives in me," she said. "Has for a long time." She looked at the book. "I need to understand what it is so I understand what I am."
He looked at his arm again. "I have something in me that other people are afraid of," he said. "Not the arm — something in the way I think. The way I respond to specific things." He looked at the ceiling. "I spent a long time keeping it very controlled. After something happened, I stopped controlling it."
"Does it feel different?" she said.
"Less tiring," he said, which was honest. "More accurate. Like the controlled version was performing something that the uncontrolled version just is." He paused. "People are more afraid of me now. Which I prefer, actually. I know what I'm dealing with."
She looked at him with the specific attention she gave to things that were unexpected.
"The Shade in me," she said, "used to fight against me. For a long time. We've—" she chose the word— "negotiated. It's quieter now." She looked at the text. "I don't know if that means it's winning or I'm winning or we've reached something else."
"Something else is probably more accurate," he said.
"You sound like you know."
"The thing in me — I don't know if it was installed or always there." He flexed the mechanical fingers. "The chip they put in me can erase memories. I fought it. Apparently my brain started absorbing the control mechanism and dismantling it." He looked at his hand. "So the thing I am was strong enough to defeat the thing they tried to make me. Which tells me something about what the thing I am is."
She looked at him.
"Strong enough to defeat," she said.
"Yes."
"That's a useful way to think about it."
"It was useful to me." He looked at the ceiling. "The world you're in — everything here has that quality. Like it's been through something and came out as something else and is still figuring out what."
She looked at the library — the grey books, the rotting shelves, the knowledge that was becoming archaeological. "Yes," she said. "That's accurate."
She found the passage she'd been looking for in the text — the original nature of the Shades, the human that had been present at the beginning of each one. She read it with the focused attention of someone extracting necessary information.
He stayed on the floor.
When she finished, she looked at him. He was still there, which meant the displacement hadn't resolved itself.
"Can you fight?" she said.
"Yes," he said.
"Good." She closed the book. "This area has Shades in the eastern passages. If you're stuck here until whatever sent you here reverses, you'll need to be able to fight." She looked at him. "Stay close. Don't get in my way. And if the arm causes problems, tell me before it causes problems for both of us."
He looked at her with the expression of someone who had been sitting on the floor of a dead library processing an existential situation and had just been offered something concrete.
He stood.
"The arm won't cause problems," he said.
"Good," she said, and walked toward the eastern passages, and he followed, and the library held its grey books around both of them, two people with something inside them that others called monsters, moving through the ruins toward whatever needed fighting next.
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